Okay so Like I said I had dinner, and slept some more. While asleep I had this intense Cold War "Fail Safe" sorta dream.
As if I wasn't already having plenty of fun as it is. I could say "What The Fuck", but given my nutty situation well. After all I did live through pretty much the whole of that era.
Born in 1950'n all.
This suicidal mayhem was the background noise of my whole childhood, and adult life into my late 30's. So no surprise this ferocious madness left all sorts of emotional barnacles in my wetware.
Imagine taking as a given the high probability of ending up as a carbon shadow on a wall.
In fact that image used to scare me as a child. I visualized my shadow, and that of my friends baked into the thick concrete wall of the handball court at school.
...I saw my dog there too.
Swell thoughts for children or 'anyone' to have.
Fortunately I woke up here in the future. Wow what a dream. Good thing I'm awake, and safe as can be in 2017.